I’ve been very busy & it’s personal!

Hey look it’s my legs. Body love post right here y’all.

It’s been a long couple of days. I apologize for not being present on here. I still have yet to figure out why the auto post isn’t working. Tomorrow after court I will try to find out why. This is my first priority before anything else with the exception of my personal life. An explanation would take a long time but let’s just say tomorrow my court case goes to trial and then life will go on, I will be able to focus more on my life, my Patreon and being of service to those in need.

Behind the scenes: I have been working on some videos, I don’t know why but it makes me so happy to make them for you. It sparks joy. I love when things do that. I’ve been trying to edit my podcast… what a chore the program that I have isn’t so easy for me to learn. I’ve been spending time learning on YouTube and it will be a process. I’ll get better over time, I just gotta keep doing it and practicing. This week I’m headed to Boston and have a long flight so I’ll have time to work on them then. We will also be recording some more podcast for V*Eats yay! So lots of stuff is in the works.

Last night, I called 911 because my heart rate shot to 258 bpm resting, my heart rate resting is usually around 58 bpm. I tried to breathe deeply but it wasn’t going down, I could feel and hear my heart pounding like I was running full speed. My anxiety spiked making things worse and even when I tried breathing calmly and listening to calming music, I started ruminating. I thought I had developed my older sisters heart arrhythmia disorder not thinking clearly and about to pass out, unable to yell out to Timmy in the other room, I called 911. In a short amount of time, I had the fire department in my bedroom putting heart monitors on me and checking my pulse my heart rate lowered to 138 bpm and I was told it was consistent of a really bad panic attack. I was so embarrassed about this, but this happens. It’s a thing. A thing I used to think wasn’t real, but it’s real. It’s scary.

This is long and I apologize, I just wanted to update you all on what is going on.